I know the practise of art or creativity within me to be a compass continually searching for my true north. True north is my ability to remain true and honest to me as a person first and an artist second.
My journey toward self-expression began at a time in my life when I was experiencing deep personal and tragic loss. It has been a very long and difficult journey both in art and in life but without art I know my life today would not be as rewarding. The one constant companion in my life that kept me searching for my true north has been self-expression in creativity.
Art is my reflection. When I share my art I am sharing a bit of me, a part of me. I am present in everything I express outwardly to the world. I see myself in almost everything I create. I like to believe I see myself for who I am in my creations. I am always curious to see how others see me in my art. I can learn more about me when someone provides feedback on anything I create. Feedback can be written, verbal, visual or silent. A response from another is why I send my work out into the world and share it on some level with others. I love to hear what others have to say or not say. Silence can sometimes say more than words ever can.
Self-expression or what some refer to as voice is a dynamic vehicle with which I am privileged in this life to enjoy and share. My voice has become more confident with sharing. I recall back in the initial stages of writing and journaling I struggled to understand the term “voice” and what it meant. The understanding coincided with the doing and the creating. I understand voice simply to be, what I share.
Art is not intricate to self-image for me but rather part of who I am. Art is how I meet my creative needs as a creative human being. If I lost the ability to express art it would not define who I was to become from that point onward. Life is evolving and changing all of the time and a creative life is what I have embraced as part of living my life . Without it, I am still me. If I lose art from my life the loss does not take away my voice or define me as anything other than, changed. My self-image is still intact whether I am creating art or not. If I lose art tomorrow I will just have to figure out another voice, another vehicle, to channel self-expression.
There is so much out there for me to explore. Art and creativity are a big part of my life right now, but I suspect this will change at some time along my path - just as sorrow and loss eventually lead me toward living more creatively.
My true north will always be me and nothing else. It is not what I do but who I am that is true north. Hopefully, I will remain honest and true in everything I do so that I can find my way home.