My life is a beautiful mess. The messy part is my life; and you guessed it the beautiful part is art.
Despite the messy condition of my life in today I continue to work toward my dream life. My life may be more complicated than some but probably a lot less complicated than most. My life is the only life I have and I want to make something of it. Art guides me with each piece of the puzzle as I create the visual for my dream life.
I have had a very longstanding dream one which I am determined to materialize in real life. Here’s my dream: To celebrate Christmas with a house full of people enjoying scrumptious homemade food made by Mel and me and creating art during the holidays non-stop. To be a guest in our house the holidays would be only about food and art. What a beautiful mess that would be! This is my dream. Art would not be compulsory of course but I would have the space available to expose our guests to anything creative of their choosing.
Creativity and art make my life manageable during the messy day to day construction of building and rebuilding my dream life. Creativity grounds me and ties me to the place where I am most at home - inside me. Creativity reveals to me that the best is yet to come!
I won’t give up on art just as I won’t give up on me or my dream life. I am so involved in living life creatively I simply can’t imagine what life would look like without it now. I have no plan and I am probably a fool, by many standards, to trust in art as I do to get me to that dream. The only control I have is showing up and accepting the process of my life and the process of creating an artful life. I can’t control much in this life I have realized and that is why I let go completely in faith that I will collide my process with my dream and one day I will arrive at the dream life I have been designing for 26 years now.
At the beginning of 2016 I decided to keep all of my Christmas crafting materials out in plain sight. I wanted to get rid of the piles of materials accumulated over time and by creating finally have something to share. And maybe, just maybe by clearing away the Christmas themed paper and glitter I might just clear the path to my ultimate holiday dream (as described above). With this experiment I learned I am very determined to commit to my creative goal and I have produced many great Christmas designs while simultaneously working at other projects. I also had to learn to make peace with having Christmas stuff around me all of the time. There were times when I just wanted to throw it all out (that would be similar to giving up on my dream) or stuff the pile, the big messiness (my day to day life) back into a drawer, but my goal mindset combined with my determination and commitment to creating had me focused all year. I might just be completely finished with my Christmas stash by the 24th and it may be just what my art life needed in order to clear the path to my dream life realized, in 2017.