From idea, to concept, to creative thought, to making art I am forced to allow art to have its own time. Art has its own time frame, its own agenda, all of the time. I have never been able to rush anything I create. I want to work faster but working faster never works for my art or for me. The art will come to a full stop all on its own if I rush it. As if it is whispering, “Slow down, I have something I want to say to you.” I am never satisfied with the outcome, if I rush the creative process. Art, as healer, is the designer not me.
From conception to creation to completion I can invest up to six months at a time just thinking about a project before I actually take any action to express it.
As a self-taught artist I must also be a problem-solver. There are always unexpected challenges in each creation from a card or scrapbook page to something new like using a paintbrush I am continually challenged on the outside with materials and on the inside with my emotions. Art has its power over me. I have learned, over time, to be patient with the process of creating art.
When I am feeling unsure or impatient art will always make things more difficult for me so that I slow down even more. Patience, for me, has been the most challenging lesson learned from art-making. My patience level (for me as artisti) is now so high that I feel I can almost do anything. I am spontaneous by nature and will try anything. I will experiment fearlessly but patience is what allows me to step away if I am not sure of what to do next. Patience has become my silent companion leading me on to the finish-line, eventually. Odd how that works because when I think of finish-line I think of speed but slowing things down is what really gets me there faster!
Documenting these CD’s I thought would take me a few minutes but like my art I need things to be artful - this includes my photographs. I am not a photographer by any means but I have learned to try to take the best photos of my art that I possibly can. These coasters in particular took me ages to complete, yet they are a very simple project. It is in the concept of design that I needed to explore my ideas on how to resurface the CD’s and I was stumped for weeks. In slowing down I finally got my idea out instead of discarding it into an incomplete project. But, because I was emotionally challenged, on a personal level, the day I took these photographs, I forgot to put the memory card in my camera. Luckily, I am in the habit of importing immediately after I take photos because I was mailing these off for possible publication. With the CD’s ready to be mailed I had to undo my packaging and re-do the photo shoot. Then better lighting streamed through my apartment window a short while later and I took them out of the packaging again to take better shots with the enhanced lighting. I’m glad I took the time to slow myself down. Art has its own speed, not mine.